Home by Bader A. Shehab

I am not sure if it was the carrot stew or the parsley diced thinly over the potatoes… Maybe it was that sprinkle of sea salt I saw him apply swiftly and with skillful hands. The cucumber melting into the olives as it swims in the streams of freshly squeezed organic tomatoes. In a shallow pool of lava emanating from the oven flamed potato stuffed with vine leaves; my God, was I in heaven from the first bite!

It probably was the ear-catching crumbling and crushing sound of the freshly warm baguette dipping into the dish piece by piece, which elevated the taste. But there really is no way, even without the Parisian bread warming my palms in the frigid Belgian winter, the dish still stands out marvelously needless to say! Perhaps it could be the pumpkin sauce and garlic salt dabbed very lightly from the iron spoon atop the sauteed cocktail of vegetables harvested from the fertile lands of Charleroi. It added to the aroma fuming the room around me lavishly, reddening the Belgian-French border cheeks from the faces sat around me, as if the Czars have come back from the cold dead to dine with us!

Whatever it is, it is all the above and something that I just can’t seem to put my hands on… It surely can’t be that sip of the heavenly white wine of Sancerre from the Valleys of Loire. It moves my senses to ecstasy with each bite and every drop of the 2004. I could not help but make the sweet, sweet, love to this heavenly gift of a meal, finish the remaining crumbs and walk across the great hall into the kitchen. I’m greeted with buttered saute vapor and the grinding noises of pans slamming against the flames worked by tireless hands.

Alain Ducasse was seated resting with a cigarette next to an old stove with nothing but a tea table adjacent, an ash tray and a small shot glass of thé à la menthe. The greatest chef in the world ever so humble. I started towards him nervously slowly brushing past the rushing pastry chefs, busboys and busgirls, who gave me hard looks because I wasn’t allowed back here.

I hesitated at first but when he looked up at me past the issue of Le Monde I cleared my throat and asked, “Excuse moi monsieur, chef Alain, but I have a question, ahm… actually a comment and a question if I may…” I began sweating as I stood before one of the world’s greatest chefs, if I didn’t mention that already. He folded his news paper and took a quick sip from his tea.

“Oui, sil vous plait, go on please.” He replied with a faint, yet welcoming, warm smile.
“Yes, thank you very much for the wonderful dinner, but monsieur, I have been coming here to this wonderful restaurant of yours for a while now and I always loved it but, for the love of God, I have never dined like today ever before. The special dish you made for the conference table earlier, what was it?” Curiosity took over my manners and I finally questioned the hands of the man himself…

“Oh, well my friend, it is traditional French Ratatouille…” He answered casually unattended to my excitement. I had to interrupt him.
“But monsieur, I know what it is, it is more than just ratatouille. I mean the recipe is prepared to perfection, the sauce is just heavenly, everything is perfectly tempered and presented… Is there any real secret to it?” I finally imploded and let everything out at once, the thousands of questions in my mind all into one breath.
“Oh I see, well that is very generous of you, but really there is no secret… Or, you know what, since you are a wonderful customer I will let you in on a ‘secret’. Back in my old restaurant in Paris I have won the Michelin star for that dish which elevated the status of my dining and my career. This dish, ratatouille. Is no ordinary recipe…”

Ducasse stood up, placed the newspaper on the chair and put his arm around me. He then walked a few paces leading me to a nearby window overlooking a great plain as the sun began to set. “It was my mother’s recipe, it’s the true color of France; the ratatouille that changed my life. It is, my friend, a little taste of home.”

Home by Layla

I’m cold
I’m reckless
I’m homeless
I don’t feel, when I bruise them
I don’t care, when I hurt them
I walk alone, I fly solo
I’m cold, careless, reckless
I have nothing to lose, nothing to gain
I put a mask on to get through people
I put a mask on so I don’t get questioned
I’m not broken, the flame just died out in me
And I am cold and senseless.
Something died in me. A long time ago.
I truly believed nothing can revive me
I heard a shout, of my name
Just as I was closing the door
Someone decided to seek me
Someone decided to step in
Someone decided to join me
To feel me, to hear me, to see me
The mask was slowly lifted
A spark was lit
Something in me was awakened
I’m still careless, but I feel
For him who entered
For him who stepped in
For him who joined me
I care, just enough to hold him
Just enough to call him home
Just enough to rest
I love, oh how I love
Just enough to be broken again
Just enough to be cold and frozen again
I have everything to lose, and I’m not afraid
Because either way, feeling and not feeling
Are equally satisfying.

Home by Toby Al-R

Stars burst, minds blown
The bizarre disparity of this virtual reality
How did we manage to demolish humanity?
With barbed ideologies and peculiar stupidity
Hatching the egg of illusions
A splendid demonstration of failure
Worthy of a gilded medal
The alienation is successful
The smashing of individuality
Under the feet of culture’s footmen
Institutions and theocratic spears
Piercing deep the seeds of fears
We are all forced into a test
That is deemed to fail
We all think we understand
The unimaginable, the indescribable
As we take down the steps of chaos
A slow down glide into the ditch
The depth of the abyss
And once we cut through the blinding veil
And witness the backfire of darkness
The one history spent decades conjuring
A flashback of images will haunt our eyes
As the wheel of time loses its momentum
In an unreversed direction
Heading straight into a cosmic drama
Hearing the invisible mouth
Speaking pompous and posthumous words
Slicing the drums of our ears
How did we manage to accept this path?
Of a total destruction to our only home
Why are we too polite and obedient?
Why do we line up in this toxic corridor?
And willingly shackle ourselves
With anti-human chains
On a platform so odiously
And clearly intellectually bankrupt
The roots of our home are deteriorating
In the swamp of greed and decay
The one we all happily produced
With the bulkiness of our melted ego
The inevitable is undeniable
Unless we reignite the engine of consciousness
The home will collapse.

Home by Menasi

Prologue: this is the journey of a soldier in the army, suffering from PTSD, and not willing to open up to even family members. This was written following the Uri attacks, in which 18 Indian soldiers died.

Dear Aditi,

How are you doing? I’m fine. Well, a bit exhausted. Missing your dal, the rations they give us aren’t that great. Black rajma beans and rice that has lost its flavor after being packaged, with poppadoms adding a crunch of excitement from time to time. I saw the photo you sent, of Neha in the school play. Tell her she makes a beautiful butterfly, and daddy will take her and fly her over the boardwalk soon! Ah, not now though. My muscles ache from the rigorous training we are subject to. Puts our honorable countrymen into perspective, ha?

(Italics) I miss you Aditi, take me home so we we can sit on the porch again, and you can watch the kids tug me into their game of ‘galli’ cricket, and you can be the almighty empire.

Dear Aditi,

My eyes are aching now, as I watch over the plains of dust and dirt, the barbed wire corrupting my view of the border once established for reasons of peace. I struggle with the lack of action, and hold my muscles tense, jerking at the call of a crow from afar. It’s like the crow is echoing the ghosts beyond the dry mirage of these plains, piercing me without touching me. The lieutenant tells us that we are in a low risk area, but the hush in the camp these days makes me question otherwise. You would be proud of my crisp uniform and straight posture. Give the kids my love.

(Italics)This is an immovable part of me now, Aditi. I can’t leave now, I can’t leave ever. I write tell-tales, fables with no morals in my letters, but the truth remains unseen beyond the dust clouds and soil blowing in front of my eyes. The nonexistent ghosts have been existent people, only sleep captures me before I can open my eyes to touch them, say my prayers, and apologise.

Aditi,

Today, I survived. Today, I met rocks and gravel in a bitter embrace as we both plummeted to the ground. Aditi, my best friend is gone. Inside, I am an entanglement of stray emotions, distorted pieces of a jigsaw puzzle with pieces missing, the imperfections of myself evident in the incomplete picture I build. My memories of home are blurred, but I remember the curve of your smile, the gurgle of Neha’s laugh.

(Italics) Take me home, Aditi, so that my arms will carry the weight of my children, instead of the weight of the armour, around me.

Postmortem
(Italics) Take me home, so I can feel the tickle of the grass, through the layers of ebony wood. Swing me through the meadow brook, and then take me home, and guide me to the depths beyond Columbus. In the absence of charts and compass, I’ll find my way, but first, take my helm, and guide me home.

Home by Fatma Al Shehab

“To love me is to love a haunted house; it’s fun to visit once a year, but no one wants to live there.”
The first time you approached me, your incessant pounding on my front door frightened me because nothing good ever comes from an unwanted visitor.
But you slept on my doorstep and one day when the rain was coming down tremendously hard, I decided to invite you in.
You didn’t mind that my floorboards were creaky and you never winced even once at the cobwebs covering the majority of my ceiling.
I knew because I was watching.
You didn’t overstay your welcome and when you left, you forgot your jacket.
For some reason, seeing it sit on the back of the sofa made me feel perpetually comforted.
I wasn’t surprised when you didn’t come back the next day, or the day after.
I would have to be stupid to think you could ever feel safe in such a dark place.
But you startled me when you pulled up my winding driveway with buckets of paint in both hands and one of those smiles that made your eyes look all crinkley.
I was worried about the blood that was still smeared on my walls from previous owners, but you calmly washed it away.
It didn’t seem to bother you?
My walls were being covered with all the vibrant colors of the rainbow.
The next thing I knew, you were coming back everyday.
When you pulled back my shades, the sun came flooding in and I have never seen light make something so beautiful.
You took every bone out of my closets and cupboards, but you knew that you could never get rid of them no matter how bad you wanted to.
Instead you whittled them into intricate dollhouse furniture, and it felt like my youth was being refunded.
All of my broken windows had sharp edges and you were very careful around the glass that was left behind because you knew how deep it could cut
So you put gloves on and replaced it and now there isn’t a draft or howling sound inside of me anymore.
Slowly, and very unsurely, I felt myself being renovated completely.
There was even a for sale sign in my front yard that had the words “open house” written on it.
And people actually came.
You made a home out of me and decided to stay.
I may still have ghosts that wander through my hallways and bedroom, but you order them away.
I’m no longer haunted.